Saturday, November 28, 2015

THE STRUGGLE IS REAL || Rachel Tries to Motivate Herself to be Healthy

If there's one thing that I've learned about myself in the past sixteen years of my life, it's that I fail at being healthy.

(It's more of a problem of being motivated enough to carry through with all my health-and-fitness plans and not being healthy. I can be healthy fine. I'm just not motivated. Also, PIZZA.)

About ten minutes ago, I was looking at one of my old videos.

I kept looking at my face.

If there's one thing that I'll have you know, it's that I have a love-hate relationship with my face (and my entire body, to be exact). My face is a weird face. Instead of all my calories going to my stomach, or spreading evenly throughout my body, my face decides to be selfish and takes all the fat and muscle and whatever it's made of for itself. (Most of it, anyhow. Somehow nutrients have to get to other places in the body. Like the heart.)

Now, you might this is a wonderful thing. I have a fairly flat stomach. But sometimes, you get what you don't expect. Whenever I eat a lot, it always goes to my face. And you can TELL. 

I was watching this video (which was from August), and comparing it to my face now, and let me tell you...I'm a bit slimmer in the top video than I am right now. (I had 2.5 slices of really, really good pizza tonight and I only did some squats and planks before.)


I know my metabolism is high right now, because I'm young, and that I shouldn't need to worry about my weight, and all of that. People have told me constantly to not worry about that now, when I'm young.

And I get that. It's not like I'm going to stop eating really good food altogether. But I've decided that, when I'm still young, I should at least start to form good habits.

SO...I've decided that I'm going to wrangle out a health plan for myself right here in this blog post. 

(That's the only way I can do things. By writing them out.)

My test period will be one week. No more, no less. (I tried making one for a month once, and it didn't really work out.)

I know the graphic is pretty bad, but I need to study, so we're going to roll with it.

I'm also going to try to make an exercise plan for myself, but who knows how that'll work out. I just need to eat better.

THANK YOU FOR READING THIS PRETTY POINTLESS POST & I'LL SEE YOU SOON! (I just needed to get it off my chest.) any tips for being healthier? advice? comments? questions? yay.

Monday, November 23, 2015


I was nominated for the lovely Liebster Award by Olivia at Summer of 1999! Her posts are delightfully aesthetic and VSCO-y; you should definitely check her out:)

the rules: 
1// Thank the person who nominated you, and post a link to their blog on your blog.
2// Display the award on your blog.
3// Answer 11 questions about yourself, which will be provided to you by the person who nominated you.
4// Provide 11 random facts about yourself.
5// Nominate 5 – 11 blogs that you feel deserve the award, who have a less than 1000 followers.
6// Create a new list of questions for the blogger to answer.
7// List these rules in your post (You can copy and paste from here.) 
8// Inform the people/blogs that you nominated that they have been nominated for the Liebster award and provide a link for them to your post so that they can learn about it!


>> Who is your favorite teacher you've had so far and why?
Ooooh...this is a tough one--every year, I have at least one or two teachers I really like. Last year, I had a really good math teacher (even though I stink at math); this year, my history teacher is cool--he tells us hilarious/insane stories from his life experiences, and he's always making the class laugh.
>> What do you do to destress?

I listen to music, watch YouTube/TV, and read books. Sometimes I just curl up in a ball and listen to the silence. Sometimes I just need to block out my life for a little while.
>> What is the first book you remember reading? or If you could choose one children's book to read to your child which would it be? 

I remember reading (and loving) a bunch of Amelia Bedelia books, as well as these "learning-to-read" books that I got from the library. One of my favorite ones was a story about pen pals, both of whom were named Pat. One of them was a girl, and one of them was a boy, but neither of them knew that they were different genders, so when they finally met each other, it was kind of awkward...but really funny. One of the things I did after I read it was stare at the cover, because the cover showed a kid from the eyes up (the story included photos, and the boy and girl both wore baseball caps and had blue eyes and dark hair), and I was always wondering if it was the girl who was on the cover or the boy.

Wow. That was long and totally unnecessary, but that question just brought back a slew of memories.
>> What is the last item you purchased?
Does food count? I went to see Mockingjay: Part 2 today, and afterwards I got In-N-Out (which, for those of you who don't know, is a burger place on the West Coast. It's literally the bomb).
>> When and how does your family first begin to celebrate Christmas (if you do)?

We start celebrating it the weekend after Thanksgiving. My family's one of those families who doesn't celebrate a holiday until all the other holidays have passed, although I'm known to listen to Christmas music in September. I started playing "Winter Wonderland" today in the kitchen and my mom asked me to turn it off. 

When we do start to celebrate, however, we set up our tree, our Christmas d├ęcor, and play the Christmas jazz station on Pandora. Yay!
>> If you could choose to have any color hair, what would it be?
I've always wanted to be platinum blond. I'm thinking of dying the tips of my hair white-blond or lavender.
>> Favorite movie that has come out in the last year (or two, whatevs)?

Hmmmmm....SO MANY. Wow. Captain America and Avengers: Age of Ultron are probably my top two. Probably more--like I said, I just saw Mockingjay, and that one was really good.
>> Favorite book of the Bible and short bit on why?

I love Ecclesiastes. I'm always rereading it over and over again, just to ground myself in a sense of reality. The author (I'm pretty sure it's Solomon) is kind of cynical and extremely real, and sometimes my head is in the clouds, so whenever I catch myself drifting up there, I read Ecclesiastes to bring me back down. It grounds me.
>> What time do you usually go to sleep and wake up (psh what even is a sleep schedule)?


I might get in trouble for this question (haha), but as I've gotten older my parents have let loose the rein of bedtimes and now I pretty much go to sleep whenever I want. On school nights, I go to bed around 11-11:30, and on weekend/break, I go to bed anywhere from 11-1. (My best hours are in evening/night.) 

On school days I have to wake up at 6:15 (zero period starts at 6:50, and it takes 10 minutes to get to school), and at 7:15 (regular school starts at 7:50), and on weekend/break, I wake up anywhere from 8-10. I actually don't like sleeping in; I enjoy doing things. I honestly wish I didn't need sleep.
>> Which Disney princess do you want to be when you grow up (because we all know this is an important decision that we're going to have to make at some point in our lives)?
ELSA BECAUSE SHE CAN SHOOT ICE CRYSTALS FROM HER HANDS. None of the other princesses can do that!
>> Well, I thought that I only had to come up with ten questions and I was happy with that last question being my last one, but then I realized I had to do eleven. Soooo. Do you like to color with crayons, markers, or colored pencils?

Colored pencils all the way! I love how you can shade things and stuff, and the pores on the paper don't get too filled up.
>> BONUS: why are all these questions so child-ish???????????

BECAUSE WE'RE ALL CHILDREN AT HEART. That's why I say "hello children" sometimes. Because we're all children (of GOD!) and also still children. I'm a child.

Eleven facts about myself:
1. I'm currently procrastinating by writing this post.
2. I'm not a huge fan of NaNoWriMo. I tried doing the July camp once, and I just hated the fact that I had to update every time I wrote or else my data would be all skewed. I figured that, if I was going to finish the book, I would finish it.
3. I'm also not a huge fan of library summer reading programs for the same reason why I'm not a huge fan of NaNoWriMo. I just don't like recording things. If I'm going to read, then I'm going to read. If I don't...stinks. (NO OFFENSE TO THOSE WHO DO PARTICIPATE IN NANOWRIMO OR LIBRARY READING PROGRAMS! YOU'RE DISCIPLINED HUMAN BEANS! I AM NOT! I WISH I WAS YOU SO I COULD POTENTIALLY WIN GIFT CARDS AND HAVE THAT COOL BANNER THAT SAYS "I WON NANOWRIMO"!)
4. I am also not a huge fan of No Shave November, mostly because I don't like beards. But I get it. Guys should look like lumberjacks at least once in their lifetimes. It should be a bucket list item.
5. I wish I could do photography, but I don't have the patience to learn all the cameraography. 
6. I want to go to UCLA. 
7. I'm creative, but not artsy. I can't draw for the LIFE of me. Seriously, all the pictures of "realistic" people that I draw all look like they want to murder someone.
8. I don't get obsessed very often, but when I am obsessed, I'm obsessed. Currently, my obsessions are Tori Kelly, the Willis Clan (CAN'T WAIT FOR THEIR SECOND SEASON TO AIR ON TLC), and Girl Meets World. And yes, I am quite aware that the next episode of Girl Meets World airs not this week, but next--and then we decide who gets with whom. I'm still for Lucaya, but now that Riley can actually talk around Lucas, I don't mind Rucas. Although I think "Lucaya" is a better ship name than "Rucas."
9. I'm a child.
10. I just need to marry someone who can do taxes for me.
11. I want to go to Australia! G'day, mate--that's a roo over there!

Thank you so much, Olivia, for nominating me! 

These are my questions:

1. When you're texting someone, do you write numbers out or actually put the number down? Why?
2. Candles or bonfires?
3. Would you consider yourself a potato?
4. On a scale of 1-10, how much would you rate your inner fangirl?
5. What do you fangirl over (if anything)?
6. Spotify or iTunes?
7. Physical exertion or mental exertion?
8. Do you make friends easily or not? Why or why not?
9. If you could see one movie before you died, what would it be and why?
10. Are you a yes person or a no person?
11. Oscar Wilde quotes or Yogi Berra quotes?

I would like to do this a little differently. Instead of posting this on your blogs, post the answers to your questions and/or 11 facts about yourself in the comments below. That way, everyone can participate, even people who don't have blogs! (If you have a blog and want to post it on there, go for it--consider yourself nominated by me!)

Thanks again, Olivia, and I'm excited to see all your responses!

Sunday, November 22, 2015


Hey, long time no talk!

It's been exactly two weeks since I've last posted...and dang, some stuff has happened. First off, one of my projects is starting to come together. I'll give you more details on it later, but for now, sit tight.

My work-in-progress is coming along, slowly and erratically. I fleshed out some of my ideas in a notebook on Friday night, and have been sitting on them ever since. If truth be told, I'm not very focused on that one. It's coming along.

I've also been thinking a lot, in terms of real life.

Tennis season ended. My tennis team finished CIF (high school playoffs) about a week ago, in second place, which is really good. We'd never made it to the semifinals before then, so when we won the semis we were thrilled. Even though we didn't manage to pull out the win, we're still incredibly excited. Since we're moving up a league next year into a more competitive one, that will probably be the last time we'll ever win league and move onto CIF. 

Junior year has been crazy, to say the least. I've had several meltdowns (one including me crying over my math book...literally...and dripping tears on its pages...and then me putting a Post-It note on the places where the tears landed and writing, "Yes, those are tear marks. Good luck.") I detest science. Math is fairly easy this year, which I'm glad to say. Language arts is actually challenging this year. Jumping from one AP class to three was major. 

I'm going in for my driver's test on January 5th! It's the Tuesday we come back from winter break, so I'm really, really, really excited. I've already had two driving lessons, and I've gotten slightly better since June, so...that's always good! 


I'm so excited, particularly because I'm going to be doing a lot of things, like watching Mockingjay, Part 2 with my book club, and eating food. (Lots of it.) Also, I've been trying to vlog every single day since Friday, so I've already got two videos out on my YouTube channel (which, by the way, you should subscribe to if you haven't already--I'm trying to get to 100 subscribers by the end of the year).

(My thumbnails stink; please bear with me as I try to figure them out.)

I'll also be planning my life out (I'm starting to get more into style, and I want to revamp my wardrobe and my bedroom), and just thinking. Because I've been struggling a little bit, like a fish flopping on land.

School has not only been getting on my case, but also ambitions, and I'm realizing that I have so many varied interests and things that I'd love to do besides write. I've always been interested in graphic design. Tackling big projects. Being a creative director for a record label or clothing company would also be cool. Marketing. Advertising. Coming up with ideas for commercials. Making films. Writing for magazines. Launching magazines. Music. I've always been a sort of self-starter; I like being the one to start things, as opposed to placing myself under another person's command. And lately, I've been starting to realize that there isn't ONE dream job where I can do EVERYTHING I want to do. 

I also haven't been reading my Bible as much. Since I don't have a specific set bedtime, it's hard for me to discipline myself and do the things that I need to do, as opposed to doing things that I want to do. When I do read my Bible, the amount of time I spend reflecting on it is way shorter than it should be. I've been trying to make to-do lists and schedule things out, and I've been trying to become more disciplined. I'm going to college in two years--I want to be able to be independent. I want to be able to discipline myself to doing things that I don't want to do. 

And during all this time, my friend has been in the hospital. I won't go into the specifics of what happened, but she probably won't ever be the same person she was before, whether drastically or minutely. 

I visited her yesterday, for about forty to forty-five minutes. The hospital was really nice--there was a birthday party going on in the lobby, and it was one-story, and the sign was written in curlicue print--but seeing her hooked up to a bunch of tubes, staring upward, not being able to move that much, not being able to speak, with her head that seemed larger than normal...I cried. Seeing their Facebook posts update is one thing, but actually visiting her in real life was another. I thought that I could take it. I thought that I would be able to read to her the crazy-crazy-crazy story that we wrote two years ago, that I would be able to talk to her and act like everything was normal.

Instead, I just used up a bunch of their tissues and rubbed her arm. 

I'm planning on going back, certainly. I want to get to the point where I can talk to her like everything is all right, read her the story that we wrote. But right's crazy. Sometimes I think that one day, everything will go back to normal. How crazy it is that today's reality is so different from last year's. 

The last time I talked to her in person was in March, at a birthday party. We talked about school (she's two years younger than I am--we used to go to the same school, but now we don't), and she's always been random and funny, but also mature for her age, someone to whom I could relate. Seeing her yesterday brought me back to reality. She was fine six months ago. 

I pray. And after seeing her yesterday, I will never forget. When I'm complaining about homwork and college and things, I will try to not forget visiting her in the hospital yesterday. I complain about AP Bio, about my grades, about everything...but the more I think about it, the more I realize that my thoughts are so trivial. What I am thankful for far outbalances what I dislike. I'm thankful for her, and for my life, and for everything God has given me. I'm SO. THANKFUL.

I'm thankful that she's still here with us. I'm thankful how God has used her life to give all those who know her a sense of eternity. I'm thankful that she is young, that her body can bounce back and recover. I never in a million years thought that something like this would happen to her--heck, she commented on one or two of the posts on this very blog, a year or two ago!

I'm thankful that she is stable. I'm thankful that she seems to understand commands that her therapists and her family give her. I'm thankful that she was born. I'm thankful that I know her.

I pray every day that God's will be done in her life, and the lives of those around her. Over a thousand people are praying for her; over a thousand people have been affected.

This is crazy.

Live for eternity, not for now.

Sunday, November 8, 2015


Yesterday I had Homecoming at my school!

For those of you who don't know, Homecoming is a fall dance for all American high schools. It's semiformal (girls wear short dresses), and usually there's a whole shebang with boys asking girls and such, and there's a football game and Homecoming Court, but I (as usual) made it less complicated by going with my friends.

I did film it, so I'll make a vlog of it and post it on my YouTube channel (YOU SHOULD ALL SUBSCRIBE) later, but for now, here are some pictures:

My youth group leader came over and did my hair and makeup for me (she's amazing). She also lent me a bunch of dresses, and I wore one of them to the dance. 


The dress is from Ross (or someplace similar), my tan line is from the sun, my heels are from Target (I think??), and my motorcycle jacket is from a thrift shop. I bought it for $10, and considering some people rent limos and spend hundreds of dollars and such, I think I got a pretty good deal :)

After pictures, we went to dinner at BJ's, and then my mom drove us all to the dance.

The dance itself was okay, but the DJ was terrible--couldn't feel the crowd, didn't play any songs that we knew, chose terrible mixes for the slow songs...was just kind of "ugh" in general. And then there's all the dirty dancing that goes on (casually coined "grinding"). I did have fun, though--if you turn the music up to a certain volume, it can be tolerable.

I think I've had enough of Homecoming, though. That'll probably be the only time I ever go to it. 

How have you guys been doing?

p.s. I recently posted a vlog of my tennis team and me--watch it below!

Sunday, November 1, 2015


Here is a list of some things that I completed in the month of October or am planning to complete in November:

1. HOMECOMING - It's this Saturday (November 7th), and I have a dress and I'm going to wear a black leather jacket and heels and I'm really really excited even though I don't have a date but who needs one anyway I'm going to have SO MUCH FUN.

2. SHANNON MESSENGER'S LAUNCH PARTY FOR NEVERSEEN - Because I'm a huge fan of the series and I went last year and I had my eyes closed in the picture so I had to retake one. I read half of the book while I was waiting in line and the other half at home in bed. 

I even made a playlist exhibiting my feelings. It's entitled "KEEFE." In all caps.

Going to this launch party, though, made me realize that I'm kind of getting old for this sort of thing. I love the books, but I don't really care about the Q&A or the cupcakes anymore. Huh.

3. THE FIRST QUARTER OF SCHOOL IS OVER. Hallelujah. Praise da Lord. 

4. THANKSGIVING BREAK & VETERANS DAY! I get next Wednesday off (for Veterans Day), and the entire week of Thanksgiving off. SO EXCITED. You have no idea.

5. SECRET PROJECT #1! Which will hopefully be announced in the coming months! Yay!

6. SECRET PROJECT #2! I had a decent story idea the other day. For those of you who don't know, I haven't really written fiction since this February/March, so to be off that hiatus with a fresh fodder of ideas is really exciting for me. I'll focus on developing this story idea, and I'll let you know if it goes anywhere.

7. TRIP LEE CONCERT! Trip Lee is the first-ever rapper my brother and I saw in concert...and you can say it revealed a whole new world for us (because, see, we're REALLY into Christian rap). To see him again in mid-November is really going to bring things full-circle, and I'm insanely excited.

8. MORE YOUTUBE VIDEOS! There WILL be one posted this week--watch for it on Wednesday--and hopefully I'll get some more up in the next month.

9. NO MORE TENNIS SEASON! Tennis season seriously kicks your tush because you get home kind of late and you kindasortamaybe have a lot of homework. We won league finals (yay!) and so we're in CIF (I don't know what it stands for, but it's playoffs, basically) and we'll be playing against other schools. It's sudden death, so one loss and we're going home. We'll most likely be finishing this week or next, and then we have break.


I should go study for Biology right now, so I'll leave you guys to it! I'll be chatting with you guys in the comments section below again, so I just want to ask you: